With the recent recession and backlash of its effects, we are pushed even harder to become even better salesmen. The ideas are still flowing but are now being tainted by budgetary constraints, which in itself is a bit of a slap in the face. How can you make an epic film like that?

So the idea library is growing fuller and fuller. Ideas are kept locked up until there is more budget. Until you can find that right person, who can take that idea and make it more than you could have imagined. Hopefully with more budget.

What are we selling these days? Not much. We prefer to keep archiving. These ideas are too good to be given away for nothing.

I don’t mind waiting and archiving. With people getting frustrated and irritated with social media and reality television, film is making a comeback in any case.

You didn’t know? Well, now you do.

cloudy sky in Johannesburg

it’s been a while since I’ve been here?

Oh, how time flies…

What have I done this year?

What can I tick off from my long list of goals?

Not much I can tell you. My goals it seems, look more like new years resolutions? ..very suspicious..

The one thing I am certain of is that I still want a helicopter. Not a normal helicopter but an army helicopter..dunno why?

Just thought it would be cool.

one small step back;

one small step forward

classified as an attack

Except in the wrong colour…you forgot to specify that you wanted a ‘blue’ one instead of a ‘yellow’ one. There’s nothing wrong with the couch. It’s quite comfy. Just not ‘really’ the one you had in mind.

A friend argues that it’s not the colour of the couch that matters but that the couch is comfortable, sturdy, well made. Of good quality. True but the fact that it’s the wrong colour is really irritating, even thought the couch is quite charming, makes me laugh when I have a bad day…dance around like only a silly blue couch can.

And all I do is wonder about when the yellow couch is coming?

music

It won’t be  illuminating in any way.

Even of I had something to say…

I would not say to you that you’re  illuminating in some old strange way.

So I’ll be brave today. I’ll dance on tables and laugh like a drunk whore. Pretend that tomorrow’s not coming. Pretend that tomorrow won’t be like today. Pretend like tomorrow my New Orleans will stay.

We are so consumed with immortality and the notion of living forever, albeit just for a split second in the imagination of the world, that we become obsessed with the business of promoting our egos, our vanity and our arrogance. Dutifully making sure that we project that image which sets us apart from the rest.

What’s my image? (See already talking about myself)

Apparently I’m crazy. Nothing more, nothing less. I like to think of it as ‘tortured,existentialistic, creative, genius’ but the world sees it otherwise. But I guess that’s everyone’s problem? Letting the world make assumptions about what we put out there.  Feeding that image that we meticulously create every day.

Now I like beautiful things, I like beautiful people. That’s me. My dirty little secret. Fortunately my idea of beauty is radically different from what is socially acceptable, so most of the time it works out. So it’s funny how people project themselves to the world. It’s pretty archaic and caveman. ( I know I won’t post a picture if I didn’t photo shop it to my perfecting standards) That’s all we do. Trying to find our place in the tribe. And it being such a big tribe, can cause some serious problems. For the ego and our vanity that is. Immortality in cyberspace is a fickle thing. It’s not so immortal as it seems. Just ask the Greek gods. They unfortunately will never make a comeback.

In the end, and the bottom line, everyone just wants to be loved, accepted and they’ll be damned if you try and accept an image they don’t want you to accept. The world is full of souls consumed with the fear of rejection, the truth, honesty and “just plain old fashioned people filled with goodness and values” that they will  go to great lengths to convince you otherwise.

That’s it. I’m done. Going back to my empire in the sky.

Good luck. Have fun. Love you.

Enskye Empress